Went to a&e this evening due to back issues becoming a nightmare.

Have exactly the same issues as when I had a slipped disc three years ago. Exactly the same symptoms. Told them it went undiagnosed for 6 months due to them thinking it was Sciatica or a muscle spasm, told them as a result of it being undiagnosed I can’t feel a chunk of my left thigh at all. Said it wasn’t until I had an MRI scan that they realised the problem was in fact a slipped disc. That was three years ago.

This evening they told me that what I have now is just a muscle spasm and that it’ll be fine in a week or two*

I swear everything in my life goes round in circles.

* I know I’m not a doctor and for all I know they could indeed be right, I’m just paranoid that I’ve got another slipped disc and that i’ll need surgery again.


Think I’ve royally fucked my back up. Again. It feel exactly how it did before I needed an operation to fix it.



This is going to be the longest week of my life.


Writing blogs for work, replying to emails and answering phone calls. All while listening to the finest sludge and post metal can recommend. Skull crushingly good.

Ever have

one of those days where everything is fine and normal then some thing happens that makes you feel like crap? I’ve had a week of those days.

Green with…

Me being the angry, bitter sort editing videos of young happy couples on their wedding days with them being the happiest they’ve ever been is not my idea of fun.


“Tunnel Blanket” is the third proper full length from THIS WILL DESTROY YOU. It is the product of over two years of having the abyss stare back at the creator and, in turn, the creators lashing back at it with everything they’ve got. While previous albums managed to strike a universal chord of human hope and near-optimism toward the future, “Tunnel Blanket” is the darker and more intricate sides of human emotion, grief, and tragedy. It’s “pretty” in the way decomposition is pretty. It’s “artful” in the precise way that a sniper’s bullet passes through the largest artery is artful.

As the aural whallop of album-opener “Little Smoke” slams into listener consciousnesses just before the 3:00 mark, it become readily apparent that this album is about to take everyone involved down a very stark, bleak, and entirely introspective path. Whereas “Young Mountain” and “S/T” could be played in bookstores, coffee shops, and surfing videos, the blackened density of “Tunnel Blanket” commands and provides entire immersion between the recording and the listener. This is not background music and you’re not going to play it at family gatherings (save for perhaps a particularly dark funeral).

The songs of “Tunnel Blanket” seemingly represent the varying stages of grief and, fittingly, are often-paralyzing. Passages like “Glass Realms,” “Reprise” and “Osario” are haunting canvases of nostalgia, loss, and overwhelming despair. Slabs like “Communal Blood” and “Black Dunes” are glacially-paced, yet somehow the most violent and eruptive that contemporary music itself is even capable of. Envision not man-made pyrotechnics when trying to process the sounds of the latter. Think of volcanoes no longer being able to contain themselves and seeping out across scorched earth. Think of ice shelves collapsing after centuries. Think of the bodies of men that have been bludgeoned into nothing but fine pulp. 

There is still beauty in the latest from THIS WILL DESTROY YOU. In fact, this could easily be described as the most beautiful album the band has ever made. Yet it’s an entirely unconventional beauty that taps far below the soil that most bands dig their safe heels upon. In essence, “Tunnel Blanket” is humanity itself during its most beaten down and darkened times. It is the sonic equivalent of being buried alive and needing to scratch and claw back to the air above for mere survival. And at the end, it’s just as cathartic, instinctively primal, and wholly rewarding.

I just…you guys…you guys don’t know how much I love this album. The description is beautiful. The record and sleeve are beautiful. And God, my God the sonic power and emotion of the thing…Tunnel Blanket is just absolutely magnificent. 

I’m spoiling my end of the year Album list, I know. But I mean, c’mon. It’s just…just look at the damn thing won’t you?

I want a record player just to get this on Vinyl. It is glorious.

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The light bulb symbolizes our thoughts and how over-thinking can kill us.

This is actually genius.

 One of my favorite pictures on tumblr

My thoughts are slowing killing me.

Each day my thoughts are killing me.

The light bulb symbolizes our thoughts and how over-thinking can kill us.

This is actually genius.

 One of my favorite pictures on tumblr

My thoughts are slowing killing me.

Each day my thoughts are killing me.

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